is that possible?

it's amazing how people tend to forget about each other when they were at some point of their lives considered as "best friends"

!!

does friendship vanish in the air like it never happened or even existed before?

is that possible?

or it was just a big fat lie to begin with and I was in a denile!

sigh*

20/march/09
!

confession to self!

sometimes I say things that may not make a lot of sense to you on the terms of the conscious level logic!!
but they defiantly have a deep meaning to me!!
you might think I am just a spoiled brat who have no purpose in life except to complain and whine about each and everything!
some people even came to me and confessed that they don't like the change in me!
they think I've been out of the straight path that they drew for me since I was a child!
I honestly felt bad about what has been spoken about me!
about how I became " different " from my other siblings
how I am the "outcast" and the "black sheep" of the family when it comes to the way my mind works and thoughts I have of the big world out there!
I really thought about it day and night
I trapped myself in a twister of guilt and other pathetic emotions
until I realized the truth..

the truth is, YES I have CHANGED in every sense and meaning the word can have !!

yes I'm open minded enough to accept everybody despite their flows and imperfections
despite everything that sounds irrational and irrelevant to humanity rights
I have chosen to be an outsider if it means that I can be friends with who I want! regardless of their financial, religious, racial differences or whatever nonsense excuse anybody can make!!

YES I'm different now, I've been exposed to many different cultures and mentalities
which I can say made me a proud open minded person

I'm happy with the person I have become right now